Overwhelming emotions awaken,
As my breath becomes taken.
Confused by mixed feelings,
Trying to uncover the meanings.
Plagued by my own insecurities,
That stem from abnormalities.
Afraid to delve much deeper,
Unsure if he is a genuine keeper.
Uncertainties obstruct my view,
Hesitant of this all being untrue.
With questions driving me insane
And flooding my tired out brain.
Accused of going from hot to cold,
But I just need time to let it unfold.
My head and my heart are at war,
Now depleted, I’ve quit keeping score.
The walls around my heart weaken,
Leaves me vulnerable like a beacon,
Feelings oppose my doubts and fears,
I’m still scared of the potential tears.
Solely this is not reason enough,
I don’t want to just settle with stuff.
I’m searching for my soul mate.
Some call it naive that I believe in fate.
And relationship or not its destiny,
But no one has a long term guarantee,
Just faith trust and hopefully love,
Happiness to share and take hold of.
Deep conversations with laughter,
Things that are deeply sought after
But I’m still unconvinced and wary,
Contemplating why I’m so contrary.
He appears so certain and declaring
Somewhat obsessive but so caring.
I owe him honesty but before I admit,
I need self assurance or I cant commit.
Time and togetherness will determine,
If this ceases before it can even begin.